Day 3 and 4! Being me

Ok so I didn't forget that I was doing my blog challenge I just had a way busy day yesterday so today is when I was able to get to yesterday's blog!  So day three which was saturday I went shopping with a friend and then had a double date with my cousin Kara and her hubby Jesse.  My challenge for yesterday was to be myself and not to be all stiff and not fun.  :) I did it!  At least I think I did.  I tried to be myself and I had a blast.  I didn't feel like I was fake and I don't feel like I was someone else.  I did get some weird looks because I was myself but I was happy to get them because it meant that I was being my dorky self.  I jumped on tramps, I sucked at laser tag, I did arcade games, I mini golfed, and I had fun.  When shopping I even picked an owl ring out at the store instead of one that was less me.  I may not have received compliments on my looks like the girl I was with but I was me and if that's not good enough for other people then that's ok.  I am good enough for me and Cody and that's what matters. 

So far I have loved this challenge but I won't lie today was hard.  I have been having a hard time with my calling at church and today was just hard for me.  I was upset because of my calling and I am not sure exactly what my challenge is today.  I guess today that might just be how it went, I don't have a challenge for today and thinking it up now and faking it wouldn't be me so I will tell you flat out today was a bust. 

I did have to make two hard decisions today though.  The first was whether or not I would be the authority figure in my primary class, and I chose to be that.  Even though I did choose that though I feel like I also tried to bring some personality into my teaching and tried to make it more fun and not to lose my patience and I think I did really good with that.  My second hard decision today was whether or not I should ask to be released again.  I already have but it resulted in me staying where I was at which was really hard for me because I have struggled with enjoying this calling.  I work with kids all week and then to do it again on sunday is kind of hard.  I have felt at a loss of what to do so many times because I don't have the experience when it comes to disciplining and teaching kids the life lessons as well as the gospel principles that they need to be learning and I get frustrated.  When I get this way I don't even want to deal with work or my calling and I don't think it is fair to the children that they aren't getting my best at all times.  Anyway back to the decision well instead I decided to wait is out and pray.  I am putting my trust in the Lord and hopefully he will give me the patience and strength I need to do the calling or give me what I want which is to be released.  We will see what happens but as for now I am going to keep trying my best for my calling.

Well that's it today see ya tomorrow. Thanks for listening... If anyone is :)