Friday, February 25, 2011
I have been working at my job for almost 2 years now which in the grand scheme of things isn't that long, but I am so tired of it. For those who don't know I work at a daycare. You think it would be interesting because kids are so unpredictable and funny but suprisingly when you have 20 kids in one room all you can focus on is the noise level and the kids who are causing problems. I love working with the kids one on one and in small groups but when I have so many kids I feel like none of them are getting the attention they need. There is a girl I work with who works in the kitchen who is probably leaving very soon so the question is do I want to move into her position. The pros are that I won't have to work with the large group of kids anymore, I won't have to spend HOT or COLD hours outside for recess, I will get that break from kids I wanted before I have my own child, and it will be new. The cons are I will miss out on fieldtrips, I won't get my tan, I won't get those special moments with the kids that happen rarely, and I won't get to do the fun art and other things that tend to occupy the day. So if you care to help make the decision I would love that but if not maybe you listened to me vent. On the up side this weekend I am going in to get my hair cut and dyed and I am hoping to come out looking just the way I want to! Well speaking of work it is that time again where I must get off the computer, go pick up kids, and watch for three hours while they have fun and I ponder on what will better my llife! Peace out!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I have to say I love being married. At this point in my life I am happier than I have ever been! I have lost 22 pounds and am working on losing 21 more. People are telling my that is extreme but it isn't. I may look thin but I am still overweight at this point and I have lost a lot of weight! I do feel so much better about myself though. I feel like I have accomplished something and that I can lose weight and feel comfortable in my own skin again. I also am feeling so good about my marriage. I love the life that Cody and I have. We are closer than ever, and I feel so safe and stable which is so amazing. I used to fight with Cody over small things, but because of him we have talked through problems, and the problems I have that have caused more problems. I had some tuff things happen in my life but Cody has shown me that I can get past those, and become who I really want to be. Like I said I am happy. Even thougth most days I feel like I don't have any friends beyond Cody, and I pray everyday that someone will stay in my life, and they will be a true friend, I find myself happy at the end of the day. Yes I am happy but I feel a little hole in my heart and it is about to get bigger as someone so important to me is about to leave me. My only hope for that person is that they will find what they are looking for, and that they won't forget the friendship we have, and that they know I will always need them in my life! So here I am Happy with that little hole. I wish I could fill that hole!